Jealousy

Please god take this pain today
It's too old and over played
It still cuts as deep as it did on the very first play
God please take this pain today

All my actions even when I pray
Brought this attraction that I sit in on this day
an affection to infection seems to be my way
Of gratitude toward self that I repeatedly replay
To sit in self and see the worth is where I have strayed
To put my focus on someone else is whom I've portrayed
Then disconnect from reality and pout at my dismay
Completes a cycle from which I'd like to grow away

Please hear me as my heart begins to fray
Dear lord please take this pain today
I clearly see now a choice that I choose to make
Breaks this cycle of keeping myself at bay
I love myself lord please hear me when I say
I focus on me now and this is where I'd like to stay
I do forgive me for treating myself as a stray
I Allow myself to move through pain as I must be on my way

Oh lord please hear me and take this pain today
I've learned my lesson I have no more left to repay

James May
Jan 6 2012